Archive for April, 2019

Time to Write

Finding time to write is always a challenge when I travel for work. My days can be long and exhausting and, all that swirls in my head is the clinical education that I am providing. It is very rewarding to work with nurses around the country. And I say this even more emphatically, since Washington State Senator Maureen Walsh said, “Nurses probably play cards for a considerable amount of the day.” This week in my assigned hospital as a clinical educator (for a medical product) I started the staff training in the ER. When I entered early in the day shift, it was obvious the ER rooms were full. Staff scurrying everywhere. Rushing with medication, intravenous bags, bags of blood and pushing patients for testing or to other units. I was able to get a few nurses together to hear the in-service and train on the new product when staff, came rushing into the ER with a patient laying partially in a wheel-chair as other held his legs and lower torso while running him into an ER bed. This talented staff were doing chest compression as they were rushing him to get help. The small group I had rounded up had to respond to the code, and the in-service was no longer the priority. I told the secretary, “no worries, I will be back later when things calm down.” So off I went to each unit in the hospital to train nurses for the upcoming “go live”.

As I entered each unit, I often found no one sitting at the nurse’s station. Looking around, I wondered if they were hiding somewhere playing cards. I gently knock on a dictation room door, and no one was there. As I walked down the hallway. I found the computer charting stations empty. A few had signs there was once someone there. A bottle of water, a scrub smock hanging on the back of a chair and a collection of pens and papers. Passing the patient rooms, I could hear voices. The voices were comforting, some laughing, some encouraging, and one doing her best to re-orient a confused patient. As a nurse for more than three decades I am always filled with pride when I hear the compassion, caring, and intelligent voices of our nurses.

After rounding to all the nursing units on four floors, I returned to the Emergency Room. As I entered, I was greeted by several nurses who said, “Better timing, we have been watching for you.” Feeling a pleasant relief and an “aaah,” feeling in my heart, I restarted the in-service. Not even a minute into it the training, a loud overhead page rang out through the ER, “Emergency Response Team, out-patient infusion center.” Two of the nurses I was training jumped up and moved quickly out of the ER. I continued with the two nurses left. It only took another minute for them to get a call on their pagers. The one nurse looked shyly at me and said, “Sorry we have to go and prepare a room for the rapid response. Maybe tomorrow.” “No worries, I am here all week.” I called after them as they ran off to prepare for their new incoming patient.

I am not sure what Senator Walsh was referring to since I also train in small rural hospitals. An often you may only have 2 to 4 nurses in the hospital (depending on size) to handle all that occurs. This includes the emergencies, and the patients admitted. I can spend more time there then I do in a full-service hospital with 175 beds. Why? Because they have no backup, they may not even be able to get a break when their patients are very sick and unstable. They would welcome an in-service so they could sit down for just a few minutes. Yet, it may take more than an hour or two before one of them can free themselves long enough for a seven to ten-minute in-service. I always tell them it is five minutes without questions and seven to ten minutes with questions. Nurses are intelligent, they ask great questions and strive to understand how this change impacts their patient and the care they give. They embrace changes that support improved care and improved outcomes for their patients. They recognize changes that are a redundancy that slows them down and may create a new pitfall for the patient.

I feel blessed and grateful, the product and change in practice, I am training them on is a real winner. They have been excited to implement the new product for the benefits to their patients and to improve their ability to give quality and compassionate care.


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Why Fiction?

The Extricated Soul is fiction and fantasy based in alternative spirituality. For me, fiction writing is a form of expression that allows me to go beyond the pigeon holes of life. In some way, it is writing the story to match a new paradigm. It allows me to explore Spiritual principles in a way I think a spiritual or non-spiritual person could hear. To delve into spiritual beliefs through storytelling was very gratifying. I have read many spiritual books over the years from Native American spirituality, African spirituality, Tibetan, Mayan, New age ancient wisdom, Buddhist teachings, Sufism, Kabbalah teachings, and many more spiritual practices and teachings. And I have ingested a full plethora of spiritual self-help books. In many of these books I have read, the main principle is that of oneness. Oneness with the universe, harmony with each other, the earth and God. It is a common theme in many of these spiritual teachings and is the passion I feel in my spiritual heart.

Several of my spiritual friends have been quick to say, “I only read non-fiction.” As a spiritual person, they feel it is important to only read what is true or thought to be true. For myself, as a spiritual person, I read books and let the truth resonate with me. Not every spiritual teaching resonates as truth with my inner “Soul being”.

“It is as you know it to be.” If I remember correctly it was said by Earnest Holmes. Feel free to speak up if I am incorrect. For me this means when I read a spiritual book, I know what resonates with me, and I allow that to expand my spiritual knowledge. I allow myself to grow in new knowledge. And more often then less I start to see how that plays out in my life, my thoughts or spiritual practices. “It is as I know it to be”. Reading a book that is fiction and fantasy based on Spiritual principles does not scare me. For there are elements of truth in all fiction. That will be a topic in a future blog.

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Now, I would like to introduce you to my book. It is live on Amazon in e-book $4.99 and paperback $16.95.

The Extricated Soul has a strong feminine heroine, China Hope, who answers a divine calling to save Souls living in the darkness of the egotic mind. During her service, she must save the Soul of her son from the darkness of his father.

The story takes on the misguided beliefs of the ego in a world of divisiveness, greed and hate. China Hope, a nurse at University of Pennsylvania Medical Center, is a wise old Soul (a White Soul), who takes an active role in healing Souls on their third incarnation without spiritual growth. Meanwhile, a spiritual call has gone out around the world to bring to fruition the “God Project,” a three-phase intervention by God to raise the vibration of the world and to stop the growing number of Dark Souls tipping the world into a dark, destructive trajectory. In the first phase an elderly high priest from Tibet, Eleazar, travels the globe to recruit spiritual centers to assist in raising the vibration of the earth to aid in healing. During phase two, droves of highly evolved humans flock to these centers to build energetic labs that will support the extrication of the human Souls to serve in an Army of White Souls. Phase three is the extrication of Eleazar’s and China’s souls with thousands of others. They meet during their Souls’ travel, find a common bond in service and healing others, and fall in love. But China must face her ego’s weaknesses and the darkness of her son’s father.

Please feel free to share your thoughts.  While I am still feeling trepidation about what others think of my writing I can handle it.  That is why I put myself out here.  You can also visit me on my Reiki site, www.voiceofsoulreiki.us

Have a very Blessed Weekend!!

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Throughout my life, I heard others say I could not be a writer. It was hit or miss if a teacher liked my writing. I never felt encouraged, I often felt stupid I wanted to write. I even fell into discouraging myself. Now I must admit, I am a self-proclaimed, poor editor, not a spelling wiz and sometimes my grammar sucks! In high school, I would pass hand-written notes to a girlfriend (1970s), and she would send them back corrected with a red pen. Yikes!

Writing for me has been a journey. Not just a writing journey but also a confidence journey. In my 35 years of nursing, I also had a writing journey. SOAP notes full of fragmented, half sentences with minimal attention to grammar, then as a Nurse Practitioner, patient notes and histories just a string of words that made up some sort of medical story/picture. And now no writing skills needed for electronic documentation.
What I am trying to say is, if I allowed myself to stay pigeon-holed then I would have missed the continuous urge to write and tell a story. I did not always know what story I wanted to share, but I knew there was a story inside me.
Over the years, I saved to thumb drives and external drives many short stories, half written stories, not sure it is a story, an unedited murder mystery novel (needs a lot of work), several medical murder mysteries in early phases, and outlines for stories. Somewhere along my writing journey, I subscribed to Hemingway’s philosophy, write while you are drinking and edit while sober. So, when I look at my unique collection of writings, I must say, “I may have had a little too much wine when I wrote that one.”

Finally, I looked at myself in the mirror and said, “you will write no matter how bad you are, it can only get better.” So, I hired an editor. I found him on craigslist and we met at a Starbucks back in 2010. My impression was he was an honest and good person. This kicked off my new journey with my 1st murder mystery. Yes, a motorcycle riding nurse who solves a murder and finds her boyfriend is not who she thinks he is. Rich patiently coached me, sending me detailed information (via email) to lead me in building my story. He kindly edited parts to demonstrate his teachings and always remained calmed and focused even when my corrections missed the mark. That murder mystery is still sitting waiting for me to finish the rewrites. The story is written but, the flaws still run through it. Yes, the flaws Rich so patiently coached me on. Sorry Rich, I still have the emails and will eventually get back to that story.

In 2011 or 2012 I found an old journal that held poems from my teenage years. The longing to write poems blossomed and my blog http://www.godisiam.net was started. As I changed jobs in 2014, I found less and less time to write. My writing moments were brief and limited until the end of 2016 and final in January 2017 I started on my first self-published novel, “The Extricated Soul”. This story nagged at me through the fall of 2016 as I was building my Reiki practice. First, I had to deal with my inner conflict that my writing about the divine healing energy was somehow sacrilegious. And who was I to think I could write something people would like? So, one evening I sat in prayer and offered these feelings up for the Divine to lead me. During my meditation, I felt the presence purge the doubts and open my mind and heart to receive this story. Once I started writing, I found the story flowed, often from 1:00 am to 4, or 5 am. So, I just went with it. I took advantage of snowy days, holidays, weekends and wine. I became a hermit, and on some days, I did not get out of my pjs. Within 6 or 7 months I had a story to send to Rich. And then the real work began. Rewrites, changing opening paragraphs/chapters, restructuring, chopping things out. With each returned manuscript from Rich, I would appreciate the emotionless coaching and the note that started or ended with a statement that kindly let me know it was not ready for editing.

In August of 2018, my e-book was published on Amazon, Apple, Nook, and Kobo for only $4.99. Just recently I finished a review of the paperback proof. The new proof copy will be ready soon. If all goes well, the paperback should be ready for purchase in June for $16.95

The story was inspired by Spirit, taping into my nursing, Reiki, my spiritual life and love of Spirit. This story fits this first-time author who needed to hear the spiritual message written in this story. I am blessed to write, read, and understand the message!

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Returning to Blog!

It will be five years since my last post. My hibernation has not been from loss of interest in writing but from the exploration of other forms of writing and new ways of working and living.

It is funny how our lives and interest go through ebbs and turns and when we follow the nudges and tugging from within, we find a journey we could not have predicted easily at the onset.

My life has had its ups and downs, successes and failures, loves and heartbreaks. Yet, somehow, I continue to grow spiritually and more confidently as a Spiritual Being. I love who I have become, and I continue to seek greater understanding and a stronger presence in the Oneness of this thing we call God. The Spirit of the Living God, the one source that is the only source, that Source is the source of me!

The poems on this blog were written as I through me into learning spiritual practices and developing a spiritual life. You must be thinking well after 7 years she should be Spiritually perfect by now. NOT SO! Any perfection I have come from the Spirit within and I have learned to embrace my imperfections and my egotic mind (monkey mind) as a part of me that I will love and transform through self-love and self-care.

In my next post, I will share with you my journey in writing. I feel blessed and grateful that Spirit works through all writing and has chosen me to be a scribe of a wonderful story.

M. Suzanne
AKA Mary

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